01/17/2012 Paleo Challenge Day 11
I woke up this morning after having a dream of eating cupcakes, well not just eating but gorging on cupcakes off of a rack, the creamier, the sweeter the better, while I was devouring these cups of sugar I woke up to morning wood. The type of morning wood you expect have when you are 13, it was intense and painful.
You make your judgments, but the connection is clear, in my convoluted fat brain refined tasty goodness like cupcakes is apparently as good as sex.
Not exactly the feeling you want to wake up to on your rest day.
Rest days are hard for me, I feel like I should be doing something. The mornings are easy because I don’t have to wake up as early, but as the day goes on I always feel like I should be doing something like putting my body through intense misery.
Who knew it takes courage to rest?
It's really hard to temper my desire to excel, and improve over the need to give my body a chance to recover. If I didn't hate running so much I'm sure I would get into ultra marathons, purely as an exercise in self-loathing.
Here is video from my Monday work my last of front squats at 155 lbs, and the entire four rounds of rowing that I did.
I’m finding that I’m eating perhaps too much protein. The last couple of days I’ve topped 250 grams of it, but when I’m hungry I grab some meat. I thought about carrying an avocado with me in a Tupperware container but I don’t know how well that will hold up.
In any case the challenge is going well, but I’m finding that this week my weight is a bit more in flux I’m fluctuating between 263 – 266 lbs, it’s different every morning. I wonder if when I eat has any effect on this, I have a session with Aaron tomorrow night on nutrition, so I’m interested in seeing what he has to say.