09/04/2011 Official Weigh In, I mean Fat Purgatory

283 lbs

32.2% Body Fat Percentage

After a month of work, I have gained a pound.  If this is what it’s going to take, to just maintain my weight in the long term, I’m fucked.  I don’t know where I went wrong.  I have to honestly reassess every aspect of what I’ve done in the past month.

…this actually maybe exactly what I needed…

Somewhere in the middle of this month I started to feel moments of complacency.  It was starting to get hard just to maintain, what I mean is that it that automatic pilot that I have been running on for 5 months was turning into a drunken aviator dancing with the flight yolk, or the train conductor who decides it’s okay to take a nap with a trainload of acids.

Here I sit 30 days later, and not a single pound closer to my goal, in fact 1 pound further away from my goal.  If I could pinpoint anything, I think my sleeping was thrown off several days this month, and I have not been keeping up with my food diary.  I also think this month that I need to integrate more cardio into my workouts this month, even if it means skipping a weight training session. 

I haven’t worked with Ali much in a couple of months, I think I need to add more sessions with him, I had an idea last month to join LA Boxing to incorporate boxing workouts into my regime, as I still hate treadmills, elliptical machines, and stair climbers. 

The fact that I’ve repeated the above statement five or six times, yet haven’t done it should be proof that I am regressing. 

I need to start just doing again. 

I know, I know, I know, I’m probably over analyzing things, but this particular endeavor can only be just by empirical data like weight, and body fat %.  My overall improved health is great, and how I feel on a daily basis is nice. 

I set out to reach a specific weight, and my work won’t be done until I reach that weight.

I think the vast majority of the issue today is a mindset problem.  I’m tired, no I’m beat. 

This is exhausting. 

How do I find the fight?  I want to take the fight to the dog, but today I am just a bit tired.

This feeling is like a cancer, it’s like a dividing cell, growing exponentially.  I have to work my way out of it. 

Flip

Last week I left my Flip video camera in the gym in my building, and this time it wasn’t returned it was taken.  It’s my fault for leaving it there but, I never imagined a resident of my building would take that shit.  I ordered a new one, but this time I found that if you order it on www.theflip.com, you customize the side with the lens.  It allows you to pick several preloaded designs, you can create your own pattern, or upload an image.

So I’ll show you what I did:

I figured if anyone wants to take my camera they have to stare at my big fat head, and Mary’s head.  It also makes it absolutely clear that fucker you stole it from someone. 

Yeah I lifted my leg, and pissed all over my new camera before it has even shipped.

What did you do with your Sunday?

Lots of great things when you lose weight, better fitting clothes, not worrying about chairs breaking, breathing.  One downside, no longer being physically unable to do certain shitty jobs…

My family owns a shady motel out in Fairfax.  It’s the kind of place you go to get high, or laid, or maybe both.  It’s in the heart of Fairfax so for us it’s a piece of real estate.  My dad runs it, and it’s like having Donald Duck run a business, so we all try and help out when we can.  I don’t mean to imply my dad is inept; he’s just the type of person who should be in control of a business.

I ordered a CCTV system for him, so I could install it.  It’s been on the back burner for months.  I finally had a chance to go out and do it. 

Installing a CCTV system isn’t rocket science but it’s tedious, especially the cable runs.  I made the cable runs on my own.  In the interest of keeping the cables concealed I went into the attic to run the cable across the main building.  It was balls as hot.  It must have been 120 degrees in the crawl space.  What made it worse was that part of the building has a low roof line so I had to enter through a 3’ x 3’ whole, and used the cross beams as my support, my knees, and hands supporting my weight. 

On the one hand I was thinking, this is fucking awesome that I am capable of doing this, but the reality of it was, it sucked.  I guess progress can be manifested in other ways than the scale.

Shillism

If you don't know already…

I'm Invovled With Fight Gone Bad!  A CHARITY WORKOUT WHERE YOU RAISE MONEY FROM PEOPLE YOU KNOW!  SO I WOULD APPRECIATE IT IF YOU WOULD HELP ME!!

Fight Gone Bad is a workout named by an MMA fighter who when finished with it said it was like a fight gone bad, and Crossfit has dedicated a day this month for all Crossfit affiliates to get together and do the workout while raising money for three charities. 

Fight Gone Bad Consists of:

The following five exercises for one minute each, with a one minute rest between rounds and three total rounds.

1. Wall-ball: 20 pound ball, 10 ft target. (Reps)
2. Sumo deadlift high-pull: 75 pounds (Reps)
3. Box Jump: 20" box (Reps)
4. Push-press: 75 pounds (Reps)
5. Row: calories (Calories)

The charities invovled are:

The Special Operations Warrior Foundation

Camp Patriot

The Crossfit Foundation

The event is supposed to be on the 17th of September, yet my affiliate Potomac Crossfit is holding the event on September 24th 2011.  In an effort to overcome feeling like a fat guy I am going to do the event.