09/07/2011

The last couple of days have been strange, strange indeed. 

Sunday night I was up all night doing work, after I spent an entire day installing cameras.   I got about 4 hours of sleep, and started the whole process over the next day.  It took entire second day of work to finish the installation.  The work is not difficult just tedious. 

It was further complicated by the fact that I had to spend almost an entire day and half moving around in the attic of a building built around the time my mother was born.  This particular building is even better because it additions were added to it, with the roof the extension piggybacking on the original roof, not a big deal but when walking on wood crossbeams and having to balance your way through opening cut between the roofs makes life fun.

As frustrating as it got in the 120 degree heat of the attic, I was happy to some degree because I was physically able to do the work.  I wasn’t frightened that every step on the beam would cause some type of structural damage, and have my big ass fall into the bed of some couple trying to get some afternoon play.

Tuesday morning I held my monthly managers meeting, and then did a quick round of the car washes.  When I got home I did some in office work, and then started to change for the gym, but decided after two days of exhaustive 14 hour days, and two nights of no sleep, to just rest. 

I almost felt it would do more damage than good…or was I thinking like lazy fat fucker.  Most of the day I found myself craving crap, cookies, crackers, and pastry, it didn’t help that I had nothing to eat at my house.  All I had was frozen meat, and a packet of prewashed spinach.  

I snacked on nuts, cheese, and thawed out some meatballs.  Not a shining day of nutrition for this guy, but at least I was eating.  The two previous days the workload just kept me moving without consideration for food. 

I became concerned when I made the decision not to work out that I was regressing, and falling back into my old habits, yet once it was clear in my mind that nothing was going to happen physically today I had no steam to do anything, even taking my dog for a walk was a major chore.  My concerns were no longer—well concerns, more like parting thoughts.

I don’t want to step back, and have to pick myself up tomorrow, to prevent further backsliding.  I also don’t want to make the same types of choices which have put me in this weird mental state again.  I probably will in the future push back some of the workload when overwhelmed, but there are obviously those times when deadlines supersede personal desires. 

How I get back on the horse tomorrow is of greater importance than where I am tonight…

Letters to Sam

I got word that Sam was still in a coma, but was responding to commands from the doctor.  On three separate occasions, they asked him to put his thumbs up, and he did.  This is a good sign I understand that cognitive brain function is intact, and that he is getting better.

I was able to connect with his sister on facebook, and e-mailed her a letter.  I plan on writing him a letter a day until he gets up, hopefully she will read them to him. 

Life is precious, and it is strange how you automatically assume people who influence your life for the better will always be of sound mind and health, I have no doubt he will recover stronger and ferocious than ever, but in a fleeting moment all of our lives can change, plan for the future but live in the moment.

Fight Gone Bad

Thank you everyone who has donated so far, I am getting closer and closer to my goal.  I am now only

$765.00 away from my goal.

If you don't know already…

I'm Invovled With Fight Gone Bad!  A CHARITY WORKOUT WHERE YOU RAISE MONEY FROM PEOPLE YOU KNOW!  SO I WOULD APPRECIATE IT IF YOU WOULD HELP ME!!

Fight Gone Bad is a workout named by an MMA fighter who when finished with it said it was like a fight gone bad, and Crossfit has dedicated a day this month for all Crossfit affiliates to get together and do the workout while raising money for three charities. 

Fight Gone Bad Consists of:

The following five exercises for one minute each, with a one minute rest between rounds and three total rounds.

1. Wall-ball: 20 pound ball, 10 ft target. (Reps)
2. Sumo deadlift high-pull: 75 pounds (Reps)
3. Box Jump: 20" box (Reps)
4. Push-press: 75 pounds (Reps)
5. Row: calories (Calories)

The charities invovled are:

The Special Operations Warrior Foundation

Camp Patriot

The Crossfit Foundation

The event is supposed to be on the 17th of September, yet my affiliate Potomac Crossfit is holding the event on September 24th 2011.  In an effort to overcome feeling like a fat guy I am going to do the event.