Temporary Redefinition of Progress
I must start by saying Mr. Shady can kiss my ass, I still think the scale for anyone who is considered morbidly obese is more important than what I am about to write about.
I have been losing weight for 7 months now, and for a good portion of that time I was losing 5-8 lbs a week. Towards the end of that period in late August early September, feeling run down was becoming the status quo. September to October I was a stretch of time feeling burnt out, and trying to figure out the next phase of my evolution.
Standing on the other side of that burnt out time, I feel like I’ve reached an unfamiliar mix of understanding, and confusion. Not working out 10 times a week for sure has helped improve my outlook on my workouts, and sticking to a single methodology even if it’s temporary is making life simpler. Today I have energy levels that a year ago I wished I had, I feel better, and it “feels” like I’m getting leaner, but it’s not showing up on the scale, or in my clothes. A few times the belt buckle has dropped but it seems temporary, or forced (who knew you could stretch the shit out of leather).
I have committed to moving forward with Crossfit to see how far it will take me, but I know for a fact I am going to supplement steady state cardio, if only to make me feel better about my work. I can’t resolve the fact that if I don’t sweat a lot I don’t feel like I’ve gotten much work done. I’m a natural sweater, so if you ever see me come out of the toilet sweating, it’s not because I took a strenuous shit, but because that’s just what I do.
I can break a sweat getting out of bed, and I think some nights I sweat in my sleep.
Is sweating a scientific form of understanding performance, probably not but if I don’t soak through two shirts I feel like I’ve done nothing.
I do know Crossfit has its limitations, and at some point it may become something I no longer believe in, although today I find myself like a Born Again Christian Evangelical. I don’t think I will ever apostatize Crossfit but, in my evolution I may find something more in tune with my goals.
I have made a commitment to keep pushing through regardless of the end result. It’s November, and New Years Eve if I am not down to a pant size under 40 I will know that something has to change.
The one thing which has changed, and it took some time to realize, was that I was eating too much. When you work out 10x a week you can cheat a bit, and not affect your overall progress, but with one workout a day, and just living life, I have to be far more disciplined in my food consumption.
I don’t want to turn 33 in January and still be a pant size that I was when I was a freshman in High School. Fuck that shit, fuck it with two dicks, fuck it, fuck it, fuck it.
By next July 2011 I am still trying to get to 200 lbs, but today I’m just trying to get to 250 lbs. For the short term progress will have to come in the form of feeling better, getting stronger, and not losing big numbers in terms of pounds, but a time may come when I go back to dropping pounds before I get stronger.
Squats 8 sets of 1 at 245 lbs
As Many Reps As Possible
12 Wall Balls
8 Knees to Elbows
Scored: 6 rounds 3 reps