04/24/2011

My Meals.

My official weigh in this morning not what I expected but hey it’s progress, I guess.

04/24/2011

334 lbs

36.8% Body Fat

At the suggestion of Tara I’m going to make an appointment this with an endocrinologist.  She googled for me and found one in DC who actually seems like a one stop shop with RMR testing, a nutritionist, and obviously the Doctor.  You can check this guy out here. 

I need to figure out if this incremental weight loss is what I should expect or if perhaps I’m working out too much, while not eating enough, or even if I might have a thyroid issue.  In any case I think if I had some professional guidance or someone monitoring my medical condition as it changes, and someone who could give me a better understanding of what is going on with my body I might not get as frustrated as I am. 

The frustration may also just be a direct result of the overwhelming desire that I have to be in a better physical state, but I need to find out if I am achieving maximum effectiveness. 

I had a crazy day today with my eating.  It’s the most I’ve eaten in quiet sometime.  What pissed me off about it was that it wasn’t even planned.  At one of the washes today, I ordered lunch for my staff.  I ordered Dominos Pizza, when it arrived I didn’t crave the pizza, but I did want to try and eat something off the game plan a bit, so I ate ¼ of a single slice.  Melted cheese is oh so yummy, but I can’t believe how much sodium is in everything.  I spent the next hour pounding water to get rid of that dry mouth feeling. 

What I didn’t anticipate was what happened next.  It was like a flood gate had opened.  I’ve been so good about sticking to my meal plan, and haven’t had any cravings, yet that tiny bit of pizza was like something triggering in my brain.  It was like it turned on some consumption hormone, and I couldn’t satisfy this craving.  I ate an apple immediately afterwards, and had my lunch of Chicken and Quinoa.  Whereas the previous two weeks I would have been full, I felt urges to keep eating. 

I didn’t eat anything else for a while, as I knew that my cravings were emotionally driven and not physical.  Yet a couple hours later I had a bag of pop chips, what started as wanting to eat a single serving turned into most of the bag.  Again I was eating without thinking; I wonder if this is what happens to a person addicted to shopping, just unconscious activity. 

This is all I ate at work, as soon as I realized that I finished most of the bag, I got bitter and starting drinking copious amounts of water.  I was ok, until I got home.  At this point there are very few items in my fridge that could do me any serious harm.  No more deserts, no more fatty pork or bacon, no red meat, mostly my remaining Diet to Go meals, fruit, veggies, and lots of soup.  There is still some sandwich meat which I’ve bought to use as filler on days I need more protein, or have a craving for something I shouldn’t.  It’s a stop gap, and yesterday it got used. 

At the end of all the cravings I still ate my Diet to Go meal, soup, and other smaller snacks which inevitable put my caloric intake way over 2000. 

Immediately following my binge, I sat on the couch and passed out.  I slept for 12 straight hours.  What the fuck?  Perhaps what I should learn yesterday is that when I start to feel that uncontrollable urge to eat, that I need to back away and figure out what’s wrong, in this case I clearly just needed some extra rest.  One of the serious lifestyle changes I have to make is making time for enough sleep, and rest.  I realize now that I spent a great deal of time eating for energy to overcome my lack of proper rest. 

It wasn’t a total failure, but 1 bad day out of 30+ I think I will be ok, I’m just bitter I wasn’t aware of it enough to where I could have actually had something good to eat.

Here is my weekly workout plan: