11/27/2011 Official Weigh In
This fucking sucks. Sucks big hairy ball sack, I was reflecting on the last 4 months, so I went back and read my blog posts from July. Since July I’ve lost 8 lbs. THIS PISSES ME OFF TO NO AVAIL!!!!!!
July is also the month that I started to incorporate Crossfit into my workouts. I am beginning to make a connection that Crossfit is not conducive to weight loss. I think inevitably that the way workouts are designed you just don’t burn enough calories in an hour. I don’t want to hear a bunch of bullshit about muscle and fat, because during that same time I lost 2% body fat which is exactly the number of pounds that I lost, so I didn’t replace anything.
I understand that ultimately Crossfit is about building athleticism, and increasing ones overall well being, but I thought it could assist in the weight loss; clearly it is not a functional tool in losing weight. Even with the incorporation of additional cardio, I am not losing weight. If anything I have felt like I am heading in the other direction.
I am getting plenty of rest, and eating well, stress levels are relatively low, so all other arguments are moot.
I don’t want to fucking be a fit 275 lbs, its bullshit. I am going to see the next month through, because I told myself I would do 60 days of one methodology. If by January 1, I am not at least less than 270 lbs, I am going to change my plan, because this level of effort with no result is utter fucking crap.
4 fucking months straight of 0 progress!!!!!! If bullshit had a surname this would be it.
I enjoy doing Crossfit, I like the diversity, and the growing confidence I have in the work, but I will not be sitting here in 2012 at the same fucking weight, with the same fucking problems. I am fucked, fucked, fucked out.
If fucking shit had a first name it would be Louis.
I have no other thoughtful insights.
Just utter bitter hostility towards my body, and my present state of existence.
I am now at a point of considering taking a couple of weeks off, and putting myself in some low calorie, high cardio environment.