I ask myself this question regularly, "Why am I fat?". 

I was born a big, big baby.  What made it worse was that my grandmother a product of a generation which was heavily entrenched in conflict with the Japanese and a high infant mortality rate she saw it fit to wake me up as a baby and force feed me food.  She did this up until the age of 6 or 7.  Essential she was preparing me for a future in sumo. 

An episode of National Geographic Explorer covers the art of Sumo, and their method for gaining weight is to eat large high calorie meals and then sleep.  After they train they eat and sleep to pack on the weight.  So it's no wonder I weighed 180lbs by the time I was in 7th grade.  Thanks grandma! 

As much as I want to blame someone for my present state of largeness, I did lose weight on my own and was able to maintain that weight for almost 7 years, yet like the old adage goes when you regain it you end up gaining double the weight. 

Again, I have to figure out what is it inside of me that causes me to eat compulsively, it's a compulsion that I don't understand.  When I start eating sometimes I can't turn it off. 

How do I lose weight when I don't know what causes me to eat when I'm not hungry?