I am convinced that trying to lose weight when your BMI is over 40 is like trying to get out of quick sand.  Every time you feel like you are making progress something causes you to be pulled back.  The more time I spend at this elevated weight I am realizing I am going to have to develop a level of perfection, that every morsel of food which enters my mouth that is outside the regular diet is another ounce  of sand pulling me back in…

I am presently working 12-13 hours a day 6-7 days a week, needless to say when I get home the last thing on my mind is working out.  I am going to try in the month of June to make sure I at least work out 3x a week for 30 minutes a time.  This is a must I think to really have the weight come off.

This month has been really tough because every time I feel like making progress I gain weight.  I now realize my earlier shocking experiment where I ate extra chicken at night was a major cause or issue that has hindered me.  Further this past weeks drinking binge with my good friend JP as much fun as it wash, was detrimental to my progress.  Like everything else in my life that has developed I realize that I must move my emotions inward and really compress my time to the point that I can't be distracted by regular life issues like having lunch with a friend.  This is the price I must pay for my emotional weakness which has lead me to this situation. 

I am hoping that by tomorrow I will have reached my monthly goal weight, but who knows my ultimate fate lays in my ability to stick to the meal plan.